YoU & I bOtH

i've try to be fren with u but then u take 'it' from me.
i try to accept the name of 'friend' from both of u, but then u become more than 'friend' to 'it'..
i've try to smile and pretend ''it is doesn't matter'' when c u and 'it' have private conversation (when u told me there r no private b'wen u n me, if i do that, i'm wrong) but then i found 'friend' love u..then u told me "U r wrong!"
Then, u become angry when i ask about it..

So how can i trust the name of 'friend' from ur understanding?

I dont wat to push u become other people...but only keep ur promise
I just follow what u told me..I'm a 'straight' person..

I dont want to play like this..this is not a game...